love anyway

I came over here to blog a little about being open and real with those I love and how that leaves me vulnerable and a scared.

Then I realized I had just blogged about that a few weeks ago. ­čśŤ I guess I am still facing that though. Now I sound all angsty-teenager-dealing-with-being-insecure. Oh dear.

But…I do have a few thoughts to write out.

When you love someone you are honest and real with them. Yes, that makes you vulnerable and feel scared…wondering if it is joy or a hurting heart that will come later. But it is worth it; that is what I keep reminding myself of.

Love anyway.

HE loves even when I am turn my back to Him. HE loves when I am completely unlovable. HE loved me before anyone ever did. And HE showed His love for me by dying for me. So I will love Him and seek Him…and I will love those He has placed me in friendship with.

unsaid

Sometimes things are better left unsaid. You see, once spoken it can never be unsaid. But, is that so bad? A fear exposed, love confessed, a dream shared, joy expressed. This is what makes, and I suppose can also break, relationships.

Be vulnerable.

This is coming from the girl that “seems to always have friends” and trusts to a fault. While making friends is easy and something I love to do, deepening a friendship is something that scares the heck out of me. To put it bluntly. “He/She won’t understand this part of who I am” is a something I often face…even with friends I have known for quite a while and know me fairly well. But all of my past God has used to make me who I am today.

Be vulnerable.

I keep telling myself that it is worth it to be vulnerable. I *know* it is. But being so is easier said than done.

Nothing else to share…yes, this is all. ┬áJust some thoughts that have been bouncing around in my head the last little while.